I will not die without meeting you - 2

It’s taken me a long time to come up with a new post. These days I have not been trying much on the writing front. I had started on few, but then didn’t find them interesting enough and soon lost the track of what I was supposed to convey through my thoughts... Going through few of my old posts, I thought of writing a sequel to one of them - I will not die without meeting you! I personally believe the sequel has to be better than the first, and so it took a lot of time to think of it.I have scribbled something, but still I ain’t convinced with the outcome and I may never be coz I really loved the first one..So not thinking much on it, and leaving you guys to rate it, here’s my latest post -

 

Where were you?

 

I could hear some noise, I could hear people talking around me,

I wanted to open my eyes and see them but it looked quite difficult,

My eyes were heavy and I felt as if I was sleeping for years,

I opened my eyes slowly and carefully,

I could see my friends and family standing beside me,

All looking at me with a smile on their face and tears in their eyes,

They were happy to see me alive and I was happy to know that I would be able to see you !
 

I wanted to know where you were but didn’t had the courage to ask someone about you,

You know they never liked you, they always thought that you wanted to take me away from them,I asked them where they found me and how did I survive that stormy night,

They told me that it was you who saved me, it was you who brought me here,

It was you who made it possible for me to see another day,

And then everyone looked at the door as if they were expecting someone,

To my surprise, you entered the room!

You were wearing that white dress, which I had gifted you on your birthday,

Those diamond earrings which we had bought from the new jewellery outlet in the town,

And those white stilettos which you always wanted to wear on a special day,

Everyone hugged you and welcomed you!
 

I was overjoyed to see you and to see my friends and family accepting you,

You hugged me and whispered in my ears, “ thanks for making it till here,
thanks for keeping your promise, I wish I could also keep mine!
 

After saying this you just left the room and everyone looked sad and started crying,

I was unable to understand what was happening and why did you say so,

For a moment I felt something was terribly wrong,

Suddenly a thought crossed my mind,

You never wore those stilettos coz you could hardly walk with such high heels,

We never bought those earrings coz you always felt that they were too expensive,

And that white birthday dress? I never gifted you that as I had lost it in that stormy night,

So, so what was true? What was real? And where were you? Where were you?!

Here's the link to the first one - 
http://www.chhaviraina.blogspot.in/2010/02/i-will-not-die-without-meeting-you.html

Happy Wala Birthday !

Bachpan mein janamdin ki bhi kya baat hua karti thi ,

Jab subah subah papa ki aawaaz se aankh khula karti thi ,

“Utho bete aaj zayda der tak sona thik nahi

Jaldi naha dhoke zara apna huliya bana lo sahi” !

 

Phir papa ke haath se paani ki chheetein chehre pe padti thi ,

Aur tab mummy paapa ko zara daant ke kehti thi ,

“Aaj toh der tak sone dijiye mere laal ko ,

Janamdin hai uska , khushi se shuru karne dijiye saal ko”!

Yeh sunkar karvat badal ke hum phir sone lagte, 

Per kitchen se aati sarrrrr si aawaz se phir hum jagte,   

Adhkhuli aankon se kitchen mein jhaankte toh dikhta ki kuch mithaai ban rahi hai,

Aate ke chhote chhote roth bane hain aur kadhaai mein puriyaan tal rahi hai ,

Baad mein gaajar ka halwa bhi banega , abhi toh bas maal pue ki tayaari hai

Aur bas itna samajh aata ki jo bhi ban raha hai uski khushboo bahut pyari hai !

 

Hum jhat se uth ke naha dhoke tayaar ho jaate,

Pooja room mein thodi prarthna karke agarbatti jalate,

Mummy hume sab mushqilon se duur rakhne ko bhagwaan se kehti,

Aur didi apni pocket money se khareed kar hume cheezien gift karti !

 

Raat se almaari mein rakha ek chamkeela dabba humari bechaini ko badhata,

Per subah use apni taraf aata dekh mann atee prasann ho jata,

“Accha padho aage badho” yeh kehkhe papa woh hath mein thama dete,

Aur hume pyar se puchkaar kar ‘happy birthday to u beta’ kehte !

  

Us din toh bas ik sama sa bandh jata tha,

Nai shirt pehenke main bhi  khoob itrata tha !

 

Phir sham ko doston ke sang , kiya  karte the jo huddang,  

Uska kahan kuch hisaab rehta tha ,

Sare ke sare gift main jald se jald khol doon ,

Mann mein bas yehin khayal rehta tha !

 

Yahan wahan hasi khel mein ,

bhaagam bhaag aur thelam thel mein

Saara din nikal jata tha ,

Ek hi din mein itna laad pyaar paake main bhi phoola nahi samata tha !

Phir us raat aankhon mein ik chamak si reh jaati thi

Nindiya rani bhi dheeme dheeme se hume sulati thi

Har din aisa ho apna ,  zubaan bas yehi gaya karti thi

Bachpan mein janamdin ki bhi kya baat hua karti thi !

Life of a guy !

Just tried to capture three phase of a guy's life.. I guess most of you would relate to at least one of the phases.. I cud relate to one , just won't tell which one :) ..This one is just for guys..enjoy it and pour in your comments :)
Get up early in the morning and go to school

Put extra oil on your hair and dress up like a fool

Finish your lunchbox even if you don’t wanna eat

At the end of the day your clothes should be clean & neat

Get a scolding at home for indulging in a fight

And during board exams keep studying whole night

Excel in all the fields and don’t just pass

Put all the hard work and at least get a first class

Still your dad will say, son a little better, could have been tried

Coz you have to realize the fact that mum & dad, are never satisfied !!

Get roses for your girl every time you meet, Say only those things which are really sweet

Order the food according to her taste and preferences

Coz you would never want to increase the always growing differences

Never ever do the blunder of checking out some other girl when she is around

Else something will definitely break which won’t even make a sound

You always live on the edge with a constant threat of getting slapped

And are bound to bear her tantrums which always leave you zapped

Still you call her every day, listen to her voice and wish her good night

Coz you need to realize the fact that no matter what she would always be right !!

Do all your assigned work on time, and also help your team members

Bring gifts for your boss on his birthday, even if no one remembers

Meeting with a client is more important than going on your first date

And work continuously for 12 hours even if you are paid only for eight

Keep working on less salary with a dream of getting an onsite

And even during the weekends your office schedule would be tight

Keep switching yourself from one team to another  

Your career is going nowhere and there is no one to bother

Still your manager will say that you are not flexible enough

Coz you need to realize the fact that life is not easy, it’s really tough !!

No One Dumped Ganguly !

The IPL auction is over and to everyone's horror, the former India captain Sourav Ganguly remains unsold. None of the 10 franchisee showed any interest of picking the Bengali southpaw, who brought laurels to the Indian cricket in the past decade. But why should Sourav rely on any other franchisee to buy him when his own regional team KKR was not willing to pick him up. I guess it was their duty to pick Ganguly to save the Bengali pride and also because they represent the city of Kolkata in IPL. And let me quote KKR co-owner Shahrukh, "You can't have a team in Kolkata without dada”. So by not selecting him for this edition, they haven't done any good for themselves. Even with a good team on paper for IPL-4, it is difficult to win hearts of the Bengali people without Sourav.

As a dada fan, it was all-in all a very disheartening auction event for me. I tried to analyse few facts and came up with 5 things which were not in his favour, due to which he was dumped by his own franchisee and even not picked by any of the 9 other franchisees.

1. Sourav has not been playing much cricket since last IPL and his recent performances in the Ranji matches also were not impressive. So most of the franchisee would have thought that it was unwise to bet on an ageing horse when they could have easily gone for the young guns.

2. Moreover, Ganguly increased his base price from $200,000 to $400,000, which can be done if a player wishes so. This went against him and no one was interested in buying him even during the re-auctioning of unsold players , as franchisees  were left with less money to spend , with his own team KKR having just $425,000 at that time.

3. Ganguly has relied on his past performances, and which almost every player does. But it’s different in Ganguly's case. It’s in his destiny that he has to prove himself time and again. With a brilliant comeback in 2007, and being the 5th highest run getter in the world in one dayers, he was surprisingly removed from the team. For the same year, he was the 2nd highest run getter in world in test cricket and had continued this run in 2008 as well. But on the Lankan tour where all Indian batsmen failed miserably, he was the only one to be punished. There were speculations of him being removed from the side just before the Australia series, and due to which he announced his retirement to have a graceful exit. So with such an unexpected track record of being ‘in and out’ of the team after he was sacked as a captain, Sourav shouldn't have relied on his past performance of IPL. Even if he was the best player for KKR in IPL-3 or the 5th highest run getter among all the rest 80 odd players playing in IPL, as always, it was not enough to fetch him a permanent place in the KKR squad.

4. Personally I do not feel that he should have been bought by any team other than KKR, still if we talk about why other team didn't bid for IPL, it can be because of the reason of where he could be fit in the team. Sourav has been always an inspiration for the team and has lead from the front as a captain. For other franchisees it would have been difficult to fit him in a role of a senior player or a motivator in the team. Also the base price factor comes in picture here.

5. Keeping all the sentiment aside, Ganguly should have understood that IPL is all about money now. With cricket for the first time going global at such a huge level and with so many stakeholders associated with it, it’s not just an emotional business for any of the franchisee. People are bothered more about the money they have put in and they want a solid ROI on that. And as KKR has been the only team which hasn’t made it to top-4 in the entire three IPL editions, this was bound to happen. I agree that they didn’t have a formidable side to win an IPL final, sometimes Gayle wasn’t available for most of the season or Mccullum couldn’t handle the burden of captaincy or the local players like Tiwary and Dinda couldn’t perform like other local players were doing for their teams. Even their best bowlers like Shoaib Akhtar and Umar Gul were not allowed to play from 2^nd year onwards and they made a wrong decision of hiring Coach John Buchanan which led to their worst performance in IPL-2.There are n numbers of reasons for their failure, but ultimately everything boils down to Sourav.KKR was Dada’s team, and everyone wanted him to do miracles. He did his best but that wasn’t enough, everyone expects much more from him.

It remains a fact that Ganguly went unsold in IPL-4 auctions and it may be the end of road for Ganguly. But I know I would be wrong in saying so as he has always proved us wrong with his great comebacks. Some way or the other he would definitely bounce back, you have to just wait and watch.

Rajnikanth... The God of all times.

I am not a Rajni fan and I never was but still I couldn't resist myself from watching the movie Robot. The kind of hype this movie had got even before its release was something for which I wanted to see this movie once. And I must say I did not regret the decision of watching it. The movie is very well made technically and is a complete entertainer; even you will love the songs which have really funny lyrics. 

But what has been the actual impact of the movie? I think it has just added another dimension to Rajni's larger than life image. One can say that all the super heroes can do whatever you can think of, but Rajni can do what you can’t even think. Rajni can jump from a plane and land on a cloud then catch a lightning and use it in place of flash in his camera. He can kill the immortal, draw with an eraser, see with closed eyes and clean his teeth without using any kind of tooth paste or brush. He can do whatever his fans want him to do. The list is endless. And as an MBA final year student the best joke I can think and relate to is that in Rajnikant’s MBA college, there is no such thing like ‘Day Zero’ or ‘Day One’ for placements , there is only ‘Day Minus One’.

Every new day comes with a new Rajnikanth joke. Ppl discuss it with their friends, family, and colleagues and sometimes even on a date. I get at least one sms per day about what Rajnikanth can do and I forward the same to 5 more ppl. It’s because they are so unthinkable and funny that you are forced to share that with your friends. I guess even Rajnikanth must be laughing on these highly creative jokes. The Rajni mania is all over and it’s just growing each day. But if in reality Rajnikant had this power to do things with such an ease and comfort, what actually we all would have wanted him to do?How efficiently we would have used his powers ?  

I guess first of all we would have wanted him to create more jobs, that too in US so that Obama becomes a happy man and he doesn't have to spend million for a trip to India with around 200 CEOs of world’s biggest firms and ask for jobs for his people. It would have been really wonderful to see Prime Minister Manmohan Singh telling Obama to take Rajni with him for few days for job creation in US. The next thing we would have liked is to create 'n' number of spectrum namely 4G 5G 6G 7G etc , so that all the ministers face lot of difficulties in starting off a scam in any one of those projects.

Then we would have also wanted him to use his powers and expand Mumbai a bit more towards Arabian Sea and create a whole new city instead of a small society .We would have named it as Aadarsh City where all the Kargil war heroes and their families could find a politician free place to live.

And the last thing we would have wanted him was to take charge of Commonwealth games where the common wealth of the common man of India was changed into a quite uncommon wealth of Kalmadi parivaar and his few associates. Rajni would have created the whole games village in few minutes and would have also saved people and bridges from falling on each other.

So I think we can make a list of things which we would have wanted to happen and which, none other than Rajni, could do. I thought of these few, but I am sure you all have lot more to say. So think of it guys and let me know.. :)

Severance !!

After 4 long months of separation, we are together now. I met her last week when I came from home. Initially she was a bit angry, but on seeing me after such a long time, she embraced me warmly. And why not, after all we have been together now for 3 years. But I have to admit that in the past 3 years, this has been the longest period where we have lived without each other.

I remember the day when I met her for the first time, she looked familiar to me as if she was a part of my family. She looked beautiful and calm, and at the same time she was stylish and cool. I had seen everything from Kashmir to Mumbai, but she was really special. I started liking her from day one and became a good friend of hers. We started enjoying each other’s company and what began with friendship slowly blossomed into love. I wished I could spend my life with her.

Three long years have passed like few moments for me. But in these years, I always thought that this relation may not long last. As we do not belong to the same region, it would be difficult to accept each other's culture and values. Sometimes I used to tell her, that one day I will have to go away from her life, but she never took that seriously. She always had this belief that whatever is to happen will happen for the good.

This year in April , I chose to spend 3 months in Bangalore, which was really painful .It was my decision as I really wanted to see if I could live without her. It was a Start, of the End of our relationship. I told her that I would be back someday but she should not wait for me. The day I left her, she didn't say a word and just cried, cried and cried. It rained heavily that day as if the clouds were feeling her pain.

For the last 4 months, every day I have thought about her and regretted my decision of leaving her. I thought that it would be easy to forget her, but I was wrong. Everyday I missed the comfort and warmth she gave me, I missed her from the core of my heart. I was dying to meet her and wanted to finish my work ASAP and leave Bangalore. And as I finished, I came back running to meet her.

I am really happy now and for her I would say, she hasn't changed a bit. Still so beautiful, calm and trendy and lovable. These few months made me realize that I can’t live without her coz I really Love her...Yes!! I love you Pune city!! ..Would never want to leave you...You have given me so much , new home , my first job , and specially lot of friends ! Love You Pune!! 

Tottall Shayarana Andaz !

This one is total Diljale kinda shayari  , I don't know how many of you would like it

but I have tried my best to come up  with a good one. Read it if you like shayari, 

I haven’t used any difficult words; it’s quite easy to understand. Hope most of you like this. :)

ग़म !

आँखों में आंसुओं कि कोई कमी नहीं है , तेरी याद में अक्सर बहते हैं !

कभी कुछ देर के लिए जो थम जायें , तो यह आंसू मुझसे कहते हैं ,

इतना ग़म ना कर उसके लिए जो तेरा हो ना सका , जिसकी याद में कभी तू पल भर भी सो ना सका 

हम आंसू हैं हमारा तो काम ही बहना है , मगर तुझे तो दुनिया के दुःख दर्द को सहना है

तो फिर जीवन कि उस मिठास को ढूंढ जो उसमें चाशनी भर लाये

और इतना ना बहा हमें कि संग आखों के रौशनी भी बह जाये !

मैंने इन आंसुओं से कहा , तुम क्या जानो जुदाई का दर्द

दिल जल कर राख हो जाता हैं जब लोग इसे तोड़ देते हैं , जिसे बे-इन्तेहाँ चाहा उसी से निगाहें मोड़ लेते हैं ,

तुम तो खुद बदनाम हो बेवफाई के लिए , मुश्किल वक़्त में आँखों के , आंसूं भी साथ छोड़ देते हैं !

यह सुन आँखें बोल पड़ी 

मन तो चाहता है कि मैं बस सो जाऊं , इक अकेले से अँधेरे में दूर कहीं खो जाऊं ,

इन पलकों को वफादारी का कुछ तो सिला दूं , खुद को बंद करके इन्हें हमेशा के लिए मिला दूं !

पलकें बोली ओ नैना , तुम कभी ऐसा ना करना खुदगर्ज़ बनके यूं कमज़ोर मौत ना मरना , 

तुम्हारे दम से तो यह दुनिया हा रोशन , मंज़ूर है यह तेरा हम पलकों को जुदा करना  !

इनकी यह सादगी देख मैं खुद पर मुस्कुराया , ज़िन्दगी के नाकाम लम्हों को मैंने दिल से भुलाया 

निकल पड़ा था जिस ख़ुशी की तलाश में , मेरी आँखों के आंसूं और पलकों ने ही मुझे उस ख़ुशी से मिलाया 

सच तो है की टूटे दिल के ग़म से मुश्किल है बाहर निकलना

लेकिन इस दर्द को  भुला कर मुझे तो है बस आगे चलना ! मुझे तो है बस आगे चलना !